I have loved 4 men in my life, deeply, intensely and irrevocably. I have been honoured to be loved back by each of them with the same fervency. Its more than some ever get to experience.
Maybe that's more than any girl deserves in one lifetime.....
Maybe I have had my lifetime share of love........
Maybe this is it.......
Or maybe you get as many great loves as you need? I think we've still got the capacity for great love again xxx
ReplyDelete..wow four...thats going some, in my little book anyway.....
ReplyDeletewe are the same age....l wonder what is in store for us...l cannot imagine loving anyone else....again...
saz x
Saz I felt rather greedy and ungrateful reading your comment :(
ReplyDeleteMy first love was a boy I was with from the ages of 14 to 20....he really was my first 'true' love. We grew up together, he was my first sexual experience, his family a huge influence on me, we grew from children to adults together.
#2 was a boy I moved in with when I was 22, we had only known each other 8 weeks when we got our tint bedsit! He was 4 years my junior and we had a fantastically fun, fabulous and intense love.
Then there is my husband. That has been well documented. I still 'love' him, I don't believe it is possible to discard love after so much 'life' has been shared, homes, babies, family, hopes, occasion's .....
And then there was my lover, also written about. He is the one that is still now in possession of my heart.....he is the person that I think of when the line "cannot imagine loving anyone else..again" is written.....
The reason I wrote the blog (which is now shorter than this reply, was because I was sitting quietly one night, alone and contemplating, and I thought about the 4 men who had made such huge impacts on my heart and the simple thought that a heart has 4 chambers and I wondered in my wine fuelled ponderings if that meant I had used up all my capacity to love :-/
...and if that IS the case then it makes me so dreadfully sad that even typing this has provoked a welling up of tears, because I am still 'young' and I know I still have so much love to give.....to someone....somewhere :-(